Am I The Writer?
By Giorgia Caso
Stuck between pages twenty and twenty-one:
unable to flip this yellowish sheet of paper,
I’m getting better weighing at the bottom.
What if the next one brings
a disruption in the narrative,
a climax or a turning point
and everything falls apart
and the written moments
questioning the previous pages
as if they were all lies,
twisted and contradicting?
I found my place at page sixteen.
That’s what I thought
until page twenty
brought me into a new world
full of disappointments,
unexpected realities
and chunky paragraphs.
I can’t even drink
all the words at once.
Expectations, plans and mind maps
flying off the window
spreading their wings
fighting against a cold wind
when new characters or resolutions
could be waiting in the next chapter.
Am I going to be able to move on
and finally turn the page?