Happy Girl Winter: How to Overcome Seasonal Depressive Disorder
‘Don’t Hide Your Tampons in Shame’: Breaking the Stigma Around Menstruation and Learning to Love Your Period
Various cultures and religions have made comments on menstruation. The Bible states, “…in her menstrual impurity; she is unclean… whoever touches… shall be unclean and shall wash his clothes and bathe in water and be unclean until evening” (Leviticus 15). The Quran tells people to “go apart from women during the monthly course, do not approach them until they are clean” (Quran 2:222). These comments are dated in more ways than one, but they point to the historical manifestation of the shame around periods…
I Am the One in Ten: My PCOS Diagnosis
‘Poly’ means many, while ‘cystic’ means that my ovaries are larger than usual and have multiple (up to 20) cysts. The doctor walked me through the ins and outs of what the symptoms were and how I could treat them (taking the pill and metformin). Once I had my diagnosis, I knew what I had to do. Stick to my meds and exercise. Easy as pie, right?
Black Girl Bipolar: Mania and Other Magic Tricks
Depression was the first magic trick I ever learned. I knew how to be around my favourite people, all while trying to maintain the expectations of being a woman with a good head on her shoulders, all while feeling empty inside. Nothing seemed worthy of celebrating, and I didn’t like myself enough to care about anything…
‘Growing into a Healthier and Happier Human Being’: My Experience of In-Person and Virtual Therapy
During my sister’s first visit home, she was full of stories about the amazing experiences that she had been having. I sat and listened silently, anger bubbling inside. Then, one night, the anger burst in the form of a screaming rage. When a gap emerged between the screams and tears, my mum calmly stated that I should consider seeing a doctor. I accepted…
From Audre Lorde to Girl-Boss Feminism: The Evolution of Self-Love and My Journey to Embracing It
Self-love was a phrase I saw pasted on t-shirts and notebooks. It certainly didn’t seem like something that would be crucial to my survival as a woman, even though I’ve read and absorbed every word Audre Lorde has ever written. To me, self-love and self-care seemed like the commodification of feminism rather than the real political, collective work…
Troubled Mind, Troubled Gut: The Minefield of a Stress Induced IBS Diagnosis
Stress-induced IBS is a minefield because it’s difficult to know where to start. Will changing my diet fix me, or is the onus solely on me de-stressing my life (the latter of which is currently only possible if I up-sticks to Mongolia to live as a goat)? It’s also difficult to talk about. I see my issues as more highly inconvenient and disruptive than disgusting, but that’s not the general perception around IBS…
Schizophrenia, The Pandemic, and Me: My Experience in a Psych Ward During Covid
I had my third psychotic episode after stopping the medication that I had been on for ten years. This time it was around April 2020, just after covid was announced and lockdowns took effect. I was admitted to the hospital involuntarily. I was also diagnosed with schizophrenia. I was hospitalised for only a month. However, because of covid, my experience was profoundly different to those in my past…
In Praise of Quitting: Five Lessons from a Recovering Completionist
Despite the angst and uncertainty, quitting has been worth it. Finally, I’m overriding my completionist predisposition and acting in my own best interests. Quitting has taught me a lot. Here are the five lessons that I’ve learned…
Double, Double, Coil and Trouble: The History of Female Contraceptives and the Pursuit of Profit at the Expense of Women’s Health
When the oral contraceptive pill came out, it was lauded as a miracle. […] We should not, however, believe that the pill was (and still is) without drawbacks. This ‘miracle’ has a rather nasty history of coercion, misogyny, and malpractice, not to mention the lengthy and dangerous list of side effects.
Cristal or Crystal Clear? The Ups and Downs of Being Sober in a Drinker’s World
In a time not so long ago, sobriety was terminal. To give up drinking meant that you were an alcoholic, and to be an alcoholic was to have an incurable disease that is laden with years of prior shame. You were cast aside at family parties, uninvited to weddings, and you spent most of your social energy drinking bad coffee at AA meetings while you listened to other sick people sit in their shame. You were herded into alcohol-free zones, away from polite society. This is a stark contrast to the sober movement and community that I have found myself belonging to in 2021.
All Screwed Up: Recovering from My Fitness Obsession After Hip Surgery
Supporting this feeling of success was the attention that I was getting from those around me, who endorsed my slimmer and fitter self. I rationalised controlling my food with the fact that I was liked more like this. I was achieving greater things and fitting into society's image of a woman. The dangerous underlying negative impact of my obsession with sport and nutrition was ignored. It went on for years.
An Unrecognisable Reflection: Struggling with Identity Amid Depression
Navigating depression is hard when so many people tell you their own opinions. “You should have a better diet,” they say, “Just get over it,” or “It’s all in your head.” These thoughts run around in your mind like a rollercoaster at full speed. The twists and turns of what depression tries to make you believe leave you nauseated. That’s how it was for me.
Mental Health is Not a ‘White People Disease’: My Diagnosis and Addressing the Stigma Around Black Mental Health
Nature’s Cereal: The Toxic TikTok Trend Promoting Diet Culture
‘Nature’s cereal’ is the latest video in a trend of social media users promoting, intentionally or unintentionally, unhealthy relationships with food.
Lockdown & Me. Mental Health During COVID-19
Every person in the UK has been affected by the COVID-19 pandemic, some more than others. For most people with mental health disorders, the uncertainty and confusion has been overwhelming. I did not believe I was one of those people until I was diagnosed with two life changing mental health conditions during lockdown.
Another Miscarriage Story
How do you tell people that? When they ask how you are, how do you say, “I’m actively losing my child in front of you, right where I stand.”
What Happened to my Mental Health When I Took the Pill
It all begins with an idea.
What I’m Doing To Get Through This Pandemic
It all begins with an idea.
Enough is enough
Why I’m taking enough out of my vocabulary.